Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Thinking about life

I've been doing a lot of thinking about Life lately. I'm sure it comes from working on the brain tumors/pediatric tumors service for two months now. It seems so unfair sometimes, it seems so short. Other days, it seems so miraculous it makes me want to cry (and I do). There are days that are really hard, but you still come away feeling like a good doctor, that you helped people. And, there are days where nothing, absolutely nothing is right.

But every job is that way sometimes, isn't it?

I guess what these past months have got me thinking about, in my own life, is that it's going by fast. I'm growing up, things are going by me. I need to stop now and then and enjoy them. I need to stay in touch, with myself, my husband, my friends and family.

In the grand scheme of things, it can all be lost, so quickly. Even all this hard work, all this intelligence I work so hard to gather, this career I'm working so hard to build. I see it lost in people. The things you don't lose are the ones who love you, the ones who you love back. When you're lucky, you don't lose too much of yourself, either.